This post is actually on time. Woohoo.
...and just a warning, this post is moar of a "beach bummer". So if you want to dwell in happy-go-lucky Stephanie Land, you may wanna look somewhere besides here.
Sadly, I don't have any real exciting stories to tell today. I stayed in the condo mostly doing homework. Most of that is attributed to the fact that it was pouring most of the day today. We plan on going out for dinner later, so that's good I guess... Good place called Tequila Mockingbird. (ha, get it?)
Currently, I sit here alone while the fam is out shopping. There's too much to do here on the home(work)front and I really want to make a dent. Not that I'm doing so, of course.
I'm mad at myself for procrastinating, and I'm hating the fact that the internet here only allows 2 logins simultaneously. So only 2 people can connect at the same time. With 6 other people here, 2 of which who are addicted to their Nooks, it's not a fun time. It makes doing work a bit difficult. I'll admit, I've spent a lot of the day social media-ing... Sigh. So that's not really good... But honestly? I think it's because I don't vacation well. With family, at least. Lately I've just been... really not into the whole family thing. I know it sucks, and it's not the best attitude but honestly... It gets tiring. Dealing with things. It's just not fun at times. Like, I can imagine vacationing with my boyfriend or best friend and it just seems so fun. Right now I am not feeling the fun. I'm feeling the glum.
As I stare at the moving fan blades, I can't help but feel my motivation level moving towards 0. I want school to come. Simply for the fact of a distraction. I know I'll hate the work that comes with it... I'll be drowning in homework my first week back (I can guarantee that), so I know I'll hate it then... But right now... I just need it.
And I dunno about you guys... but have you ever just stopped and wondered where your life is even going? Just a while ago I was thinking about me... who I am... (still struggling to find that out, btw) and I don't know what to do. It's like I'm questioning everything. A "who is this, and why is she using my computer" kind of thing. And I'm not liking it. It's a bit disconcerting.
And so. It is with a heavy heart and an empty head that I publish this post. I do hope to goodness that you people are having an awesome summer. Live it up.
xoxo