Settling Into Summer Should Not Equal a Headache.

I'm kind of disappointed.

So far, summer isn't really... all I cracked it up to be.

It's hot and it's rainy and stress is surprisingly STILL here.

I know/hope it'll get better as time goes on and things are established, but right now I am just.... existing.  I don't really have anything to do.  I mean, I could clean my room and do summer assignments... (I'd rather the former than the latter...) but ugh

Sometimes I wonder what I am doing with my life.  It wouldn't be the first time I've come back to school and all these people are like "I went to Jamaica over the summer!" or "I volunteered like, 200 hours!" or "insert whatever 'wickedly awesome thing in here' ".  Sigh.  So I need ideas.  Other than summer assignments.  I'll get around to those... Though I guess there's nothing wrong with getting a head start.

I NEED TO BRAINSTORM WAYS TO GET RID OF THIS SUMMER BOREDOM.

(...any suggestions would be appreciated (;  )  But until then, I guess here's some brainstorms/plans/goals for PHASE 1 / PHASE 2 of summer:

-Run.  That's right.  I need to find some shoes that aren't broken (I kinda broke mine) and just start getting up early (while it's still relatively cool) and just go, earbuds in ears, running.

-Reconnect.  There are people I haven't seen in a while and I definitely wanna change that.  Sometime this summer I should throw a party or something...

-Do work.  Yeah, yeah... I'll get around to those summer assignments.  I don't want this to spoil my supposed summer fun, though...

-Drive.  Yeah, I need to log hours in order to work towards my license

-Work.  Perhaps I can get a job this summer and actually work towards putting money in that account for college... I've got a plan, and paying for it all will be easy if I just stick to it and get through it diligently.

-Create.  Somewhere in there I gotta have some expressive somethingish time.  I've got a blank canvas in my room and I wanna fill it with something eventually... and maybe I can redecorate my room.  The overrated things I have hanging up need to go... including those little cutouts of Hayden Christensen... *slow facepalm*

-Blog.  Yeah.  With all this time on my hands, I can actually do this now.  All school year long I complained I didn't have enough time.  Well now I do, and I should use it (;

-Play Videogames? I can't remember the last time I've sat in front of my GameCube console and played for hours.  Maybe I should rekindle the flame... if it means less boredom....

If I can do all this, hopefully I'll be able to fill my seemingly dark abyss of summer nothing. **Maybe something you don't know about me... I like being busy.  I like organized chaos, I guess you could say.  When I make to-do lists, I put way too many tasks on the paper.  While I do like time to sit and relax, honestly, I'm a gogogoer at heart, and it takes some crazy for me to be in my element (;

SO with these goals in mind... I shall attempt to a) get rid of this headache I currently have and b) work towards settling into summer FOR REAL and finding stuff to do that I love and will somehow make my life feel a little bit more worthwhile.

xoxo